About me (Leo Krans) and my book
The person behind all this, is me, Leo Krans. As said on the homepage, I live in The Netherlands, written a book about psychology in Dutch by accident. Probably you are thinking you do not write a book by accident. Well I did. I never had the intention of writing a book. I have always been curious about things. And also about self improvement. I wanted to know what moves people and what can be done to improve yourself. And I wasn't the happiest person. At that moment I didn't realize that, but now because I have grown, I know it wasn't what it could be.
Besides that I wanted to know what I want in life. Some kind of goal. Now I know there isn't something like a goal in life. The only thing there is finding something you really like and / or give meaning to your life. Now I found what I really like doing. That is writing psychology, making music and creating animation. One day I thought if there would be a goal in life it would have been found, because many (millions?) are looking for it. It would be big headlines worldwide saying "I have found the meaning / goal in life. It is ............." Maybe I have missed it. But probably it doesn't exist. The levels in life from low to high are problems > no problems > feeling good > feeling good + doing nice things. It is a bit the pyramid from Maslow.
Back to me and my by accident written book. I wrote down the interesting things from the books and my own thoughts. Slowly I began to understand more things. So did some more writing of my own thoughts. Because I had so many notes, written everywhere, I decided to get it organized in a computer. So I bought an old computer and learned how to use it. Because organizing text in a computer is pretty easy, I had an overview again. And this resulted in new thoughts, which could be easily included. Because besides psychology books, I also read related subjects like child behavior (especially Maria Montessori), Buddhism, brain functions and others, I began to see connections. Many things are related, but because the approach is different, you don't see they are connected at first. And every time I went through my computer notes, more ideas came. After a while I had something like hundred pages. Well, I thought, maybe I could write a book about it. Although I wasn't very serious about this in the beginning, the idea of writing a book excited me so much, that I kept reading my notes and adding things. Then it became so much and so good, it had to be a book.
So I figured out how to publish it. Because I read a good book about
it, which advised to publish it on your own (so without a publishing
company), I decided to go that way. Using a publishing company is easier,
but you loose control, they want it their way, it is hard to find a
publisher who is interested, publishing is a very long time process,
and you make little money on your creation. So I decided to publish
it myself as an independent publisher. I have no regrets doing this.
And it is much more fun. Getting it printed was not an easy process,
but I'll skip that part. That is why it is published by accident. I
never had the intention of writing a book. It started as personal notes.
And one other thing happened. This was even more important. During my writing process (took me several years), I slowly started to change. The more I started to got into depth into psychology, the more I also started to understand my own thoughts. It was a kind of writing myself upwards to a more balanced person. Or see it as a jigsaw puzzle. The pieces started to fall into its place. Because of my writing, I found my balance again. Now I am a happy, balanced person. It is a better me as I used to be. More about being in balance on my self improvement site.
My balance is back (every child is in balance when born), because I got rid of doubting myself. Doubting yourself is a problem which most, if not all adult are suffering from. It is a kind of virus (not a real virus) which prevents you from growing to your full potential. I don't want to talk about this here about balance, because my self improvement site is dealing with these kind of subjects. The site will have dozens of articles one day.
The doubt about myself has disappeared now. I am not saying I know everything and not saying I am perfect. So don't understand me wrong. There are a lot of thing I don't know, I make many mistakes and I am not capable of doing a lot of things. For instance, my cooking skills are very very limited. But if I would put my mind to it, I could be a pretty good cook. Many things can be learned with a lot of effort, as long as you are not doubting you can learn it. Probably I write an article about this.
One day my book will be translated into English. Doing it myself will take me several years and I don't have that time. Outsourcing is too expensive for me right now. But it will happen one day.
Because I don't doubt anymore if I can do the things I want to do, my desire for creating music broke through. It has always been there, but at that time I wasn't ready for it.
About my music
Because I could make a small living from my book and some advertising, I quit my job and started to do what I wanted for many years. And that is making music. I have always been a music fan. I have a lot of records and they are a part of my life. Because the doubt that I could create music is gone now and because of the Internet many things are possible now, my music project was born. Not revealing how I am creating my music. It took me a long time to figure out how to do it my way. If you also want to create music, you have to put some effort to it and find your own way. My way is my way. The only thing I can say, it is fully created on a computer. One day there will be my own compositions. But I am not ready for that right now. Still a lot of learning to do.
For me there is only one rule about music and that is, it has to feel right. I have no preference for a certain music style or genre. What the music makes me feel, is what counts. It can be from classical music to hard rock. I call this open minded to music. Many, if not most people, only prefer a certain genre of music. Very often it is the music from their teen age. But those are limiting themselves. Most genres have good and bad music. Bad music is what doesn't feel right. One day there will be article of this subject on this site or my psychology site.
My music can get you to a better state of mind. This means more relaxed and even happier. It is a kind of meditation process. The purpose of meditation is to distract your mind from your nonstop thoughts and get real peace of mind without alcohol, drugs or medication. The right music can do that too. And probably better, because to stop thinking and focusing on for instance a candle, is harder as focusing on music. The result is the same (relaxation of the mind), but music is easier.
That is why most people like music. It makes them feel better. Probably not realizing they are doing a kind of meditation. But feeling better through music, is a temporary improvement. For better and definitive improvement, you need more. For that you need the right psychology info. During growing up, most adults have become out of balance. This is the reason for all the problems in the world. Music (and animation) can improve things during listening / watching and a while after that. But sooner or later you will fall back to your default state. Only when you are going to understand why you are so tensed, aggressive, insecure, restless, or whatever, your default state can go up to higher levels definitely. Keep watching my self improvement site for new articles or follow me on Twitter or Facebook.
About my animation
Took me a while to figure out a way to promote my music. Finding a record company and loose all control over my music is not what I want. So I decided to do this also (like my book and music) the independent way. The main problem with creating music on a computer, there is nothing visual. A regular band / performer is visible. You can record them singing / playing / performing / walking or whatever (a video clip). But I don't have that. After a long search, Compubodies animation became my solution. In short, making animation to accompany my music.
The Compubodies wasn't my first thought, but it came at the end of my search. Because I wasn't very happy with my first animation video, I looked for better software and found Carrara. And because of that, I had more possibilities. So I decided Compubodies wasn't for accompany my music only, but it could be more. The Compubodies planet is a now a world of its own and includes my music.
About me general
Creating the book took me several years of almost nonstop writing.
Everything on this project (music, animation, characters) is created by me. If you see "we" on the animation site, it is from the point of view of my Compubodies. The Compubodies are weird. I am not. Although some may disagree on this. So "I" don't say weird things, but "we" can.
If you don't like my project, you don't have to tell me. I don't care. I like it. And that is what counts. Whatever one does, there will be always many who don't like it. Nobody can please everybody. It is a part of life. I know, maybe it is not perfect, but I don't have a large budget or employees, nor I am a professional musician / animator. But I like it.
Something to think about: I have created / figured everything out myself. I have learned myself writing and publishing a book, creating and publishing music, creating and publishing animation, creating HTML pages, running domains, car restoration and some smaller stuff. I haven't had a high education. But I have over 200 books about these subjects. Don't see this as bragging. The message I want to send is you can teach yourself a lot if you really put your mind to it. Many things are not impossible. Amazon is my favorite bookstore. Low prices, often no shipping costs, fast, huge assortment, reviews, etc. I have to say, reviews could be manipulated by friends. For most books you can look inside and the table of content was very important for me. Very often it says, yes I need this book. For some subjects you can try used books (older but cheaper). And yes, finding what you want is not easy. Start small and expand. Or start from scratch again.
Nothing I have done is impossible by others. If you can read, you could do it. You only need time, persistence and not being afraid to fantasize. And yes, you have to start at a very simple level. A bit like a child doing his first steps.
I have two work spaces. One is sitting behind the computer and doing my thing. The other is laying on my bench, relaxing and thinking (the bigger picture). I I have always pen and paper nearby, because good thoughts come very unexpected, like just before you fall asleep, and the idea can disappear very quickly.
I am not obsessed with making money. There are a lot of things I will
not do because it lets me earn (a lot of) money. But I do not have a
problem making money. Money gives you freedom. With freedom I will feel
better and the better I feel, the better my music and animation. So
if you think I am doing this for the earnings. Yes, you are right for
a part. But I truly believe you cannot become happy with money. You
can be happier as you were, but an unhappy person will also be unhappy